Strange feeling

Today, as usual, volenteer at Lions Manor.
Anyway, i met him... feel kinda strange, because its too formal, i know she is being nice, but it was just weird, of knowing a person, through formally introduced by someone...
he asked me out, i said sure, but not now, coz it is bad timing, finals are coming, and i really have to study... but now i realized something after talking to my friend about this...she told me i was trying to build a 'wall' in between him and i. it could be...but i don't know. because i thought i was just trying to be nice...he gave me his phone number, asked me to call, feel awkward to call someone that i do not know whether i like or dislike him...
I feel happy that someone says he likes me, but....that's bout it, nothing special...i am confused...
too many thoughts happened to be pop up into my mind, i knew that he just wasn't that type of person that i would like to be with for the rest of my life, but...what should i say? give both of us a chance? maybe...yes...or...no? would it be too early to think about it?

正在想應不應該接受，好像有點想太多。呵~ 可是我就是將，縂喜歡想些有的沒的，所以才會猶豫不決。希望自己的第一次牽手就是永遠，好像有點異想天開呵。
不過當他讚我很漂亮，很想要認識我時，呵呵，還蠻開心的~
可是啊，覺得自己還是有點白癡樣，在男生面前總是倔強的希望表現得得體，可是，好奇怪哦，往往都是適得其反，真討厭！

Julianne asked me to call him, and not to wait until 7 days later, haha, or else he would think that i am not into him...haha, actually i really want to do that...sigh, so that i don't have to bother, just live how i live right now, school, home and school...nothing should be in my thought beside those things.

接受，會不會只是因爲寂寞？又或只是想要嘗試？我不想後悔。
好想哭啊，好想家！好想離開，好想見帥哥！好想....睡覺！！！
別想了，一切順其自然了唄！煩。