realize?

Accidently, browsed through my friend's blog.
Friends, comments and pictures. Wasn't it those kind of life that i was looking for? When did i change? and when did i 'realize' those just wasn't what i wanted?
Unconsciously, maybe i was jealous, that i wasn't surrounded by lots of friends, didn't have lots of nonsense to talk about.
Or maybe unconsciously, i am who i am, changing myself to cater to others?
I have tried, but it was hard.
I have failed so many times, in the end, i have given up.
就伴隨著孤獨吧。

可能自己也害怕過，這樣的人生是危險的...
可是試著去迎合別人，到頭來自己最得到什麽？
或許這就是她和我不同的人生路吧。