Random thought

I was reading some journals for tomorrow exam. Interesting enough, found out that one of the theory happened 'coincidentally' to my situation.
"low self-esteem individuals might project any new self-doubts onto their partners, imagining that their partners will share their own sense of disappointment, this is so called naive realism.
Occasional failures or disappointment might activate concerns that their romantic partners will eventually discover their "true" selves and then their affections might diminish."

Was telling Jenny that i still can't find a way to step out from some of my unconscious fear, i do not know what it is, but sometime it just bugs me. Yesterday night, was weird, went to bed around 12.45am, i wasn't tired, but i need to sleep early so that i can wake up early today, but just couldn't sleep. Feel hard to breath too, feel like something needs to come out from my unconscious thought.

看著某一個頂點
想著某一件事情
思緒飄浮
情緒失控
想要尖叫
想要發洩
奈何
只能感受著眼淚從心裏流過