Man-hater

What a small world?
Today, i went to a cafe, named 'Just dessert', it is obviously a cafe that sell dessert. My friend and I were satisfied of the sweetness of chocolate, wow, can't imagine how delicious there were! We talked a lot, a long chat. All topics that we could think of, from chocolate to sex...haha~ we end it up by telling each other that we are 'man-hater'.. What an extreme word, i think. Even thou she is now in a relationship, still, we kinda lost the confident for guys. It was just a weird feeling, of knowing that there were actually someone out there who 'hate' guys and now actually with a guy...
So many times, that i have told myself not to disclose too much...But all the time, i disappointed myself...But i felt release after chatting with her, she was actually the first person who asked me to continue how i feel now---not to trust guys easily..to become picky. but am i really picky?? my friends have told me not to be choosy, but what i wanted to tell them was i just don't know how to deal with guys sometimes. Once i saw them, i just don't know what should i act, what is appropriate to act in front of them. maybe i was too 'artificial', but this is life, even thou we keep telling ourselves that we want to be who we are, but how many people can actually be who they are without worrying how others look at you....
Maybe i was 'immature', but i do think that "MEN" are mostly immature. the way they talk and the way they want to tease you, in order to get your attention, or just want to proof that they are smarter than you are..just make me sick sometimes...sick...i
However, to become a succesful peer supporter, what i need to do is to convince others that there are still hopes in life...in which i was the one who feel no hope in this matter. sigh